I sometimes sit paralyzed, not knowing what to do. My mind swims in a list of activity, things that I should be doing. I am in a perpetual state of getting things done now, that I shut down to a state of anxiety. Nothing seems to be done, no magic wand to straighten the path. If I could just be happy with the moment, if I could just be calm and confident. The never ending 'if'.
I feel a constant need to hurry things along, the impatience of life that gets me nowhere.